Blog #2 – Project proposal

So, I had to do some more brainstorming about my project but I think I’ve come up with some more specific ideas. My goal for this project is to I'm thinking that I would like to focus on creating a forum where I can post questions and people can share their experiences linked to race and ethnicity. I am hoping that with this I would be able to gather what's going on out there regarding this topic. I would like to also link a blog or webpage to it where I can share my own experiences as a Latin American. Sharing my experiences as a Latina that came to this country when she was 9-years-old would hopefully open doors to the public to share their own experiences. I haven't really experience straight forward discrimination but I've seen particular cases where people have discriminated. I work as a Human Resource Specialist and discrimination and diversity are topic that we deal with on a daily basis. I would like to incorporate experiences and stories I've seen and lived at my workplace (keeping it anonymous, of course. I would have too). 

Create a forum where I can post race and ethnicity question where people can share their experiences/stories regarding this topic. Create a blog/website that I can link to this forum and share my own experiences along with stories I’ve heard and seen from others. Perhaps include stories/interviews from people I know regarding this topic. Linking the forum and website/blog to perhaps my twitter account to bring people’s attention. With this I’ll hopefully find similarities among our differences. 

Blog #2: The Proposal

Objective: I would like to make a 15-20 minute documentary about stereotypes and how they are perceived in Hollywood specifically comedic writing.

Materials:

  • Camera/Phone
  • Tripod
  • Videos of interviews
  • Interviewees
  • Editing Software (I have Adobe Premiere)
  • I also plan to make an organized storyboard of the documentary
  • Videos, books, magazines, Web info pertaining to topic for documentary discussion

Inspiration: My inspiration for this project is my love for film and creative writing. Sometimes I think comedians, writers, and directors aren’t given enough credit. I imagine some of them may do more than just think of a stereotype and make fun of it. I want to research the how and what they research to make their work.

In terms of people who would be involved, I want to interview fans of comedy and stereotypical shows. I’d like to share this information and get their take on it. If what I think is true, I imagine many fans would be surprised (I plan to be!)

The questions that would be asked would first pertain to their common knowledge of stereotypes. Then the questions for these interviews would concentrate into the video interviews (and other info) I find of comedians and figures in Hollywood.

I am very excited to go about this project in a creative way. I believe it will allow me to educate myself and others on stereotypes, and also allow me to express what I have learned in a challenging yet creative way.


Blog 2

I thought long about what I want this project to be. At first I was thinking of exploring my identity by interviewing family members but I wanted to do something a bit creative. I love to sing so I had the idea of writing a song and creating a video. I will make either a music video or a slideshow picture video with my audio file in the background. I am a double major in communication and have skills with audio and video editing. the song will be normal song length of between 2-4 minutes and the background images or video will match the length of how long the audio ends up being.

Of U of T Austin

So. A lot of people’re interested in the fucked up (racial) politics of language, I’m gonna say. I fielded a lot of commentary bout what we need to and should start doing bout language discrimination not just in school but in the “real world,” and how we can better help students under our tutelage whose languages don’t reflect the standard language. BTW: a lot of awesome folks put me onto some dope ass reads y’all in class might appreciate; and: w/ Dr. Z’s permission, there’s a high school class in Vermont who’d like to talk to us.

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That aside: b e a u tiful campus, U of T Austin; Kean got nothin on U of T Austin, no question. And best believe Tier 1 like them worth and got the funds for all kinds of fine ass roundtables.

Here go one of the reads, a David Foster Wallace (god rest his soul) one.


Once Again

Feel like a second post is in order, or due. And neither because we or just I have to, either. (Also. my bad for the delay; was outta town a few days, representin Kean one time at U of TX Austin; had so much fun. Here a highlight; this The Texas Trio. Y’all can also check my favorites for more.)

Now: best believe the adulation dishes thus served last class got Your Boy feelin like a candelabrum. That and yum. Who got an extinguisher, because I’m on fire. Or even just a snuffer. Unless I’m flambé. Then who got a ramekin? For that use an ovenmitt, unless it’s an ovenglove, if they’re even compound words like that. That is, if I don’t have that all wrong, I mean.

Basically, I’m never really lookin like that for unsolicited feedback like that, really, so (unless it’s “but,” as in “I’m never really lookin like that for unsolicited feedback like that, really,  but“) I am touched, in that I am capable to feel in my capacity to feel such a thing with the one of my five senses, by the canicular current sent my way. Snuggies got nothing on this. Nor do affectionate-ass significant others. Go to anywhere in the Southern Hemisphere and still you won’t find a sunkist of this verisimilitude or caliber. Unless there should be a comma. Like, it should be “verisimilitude, or caliber,” I mean. Forget it.

So. You get it that my heart is swollen then? Superb then. Word then. You’re either gonna call me a cardiologist now or it’s on to the next one then. Very well then–the next one then.

Mariella: I didn’t quite get from you what I was digging for in class, with my circumventing behind. So Imma say it plain right now for you, if you can catch what I’m pitchin. What I was and am still curious about is what, if anything, you are doing exactly to mitigate assumptions folks have of you without even knowing you? and: how much of you is wittingly or unwittingly informing others’ assumptions about you and yours? and: is it important, do you think, for peeps to wear they “ethnicity” like that for others to recognize? or: is what you’re saying that folks just should not make assumptions at all bout who and what others are, identify with? I’m asking because I feel like mad folks already got it twisted in they heads, this stuff. Like, you’re not black enough–or in your case, Filipino enough–if you’re not doing and/or saying x, y, and z. How much of what you do is demonstratively or performatively Filipino? And if nothing, are assumptions valid, in that people’re just going to assume on autopilot, just because? I’m curious is all. And don’t get me wrong, because performance isn’t everything. Case in point is the ent. industry. A lot of what I see out here as acting ethnic is really just stereotype, I feel like. It’s that because we take an external approach to ethnography. Exteriority works in certain contexts, particularly for this historically disenfranchised, in what I’ve seen at least. We gotta be more etic than emic, unless it’s vice versa. But stereotypes are funny, too. Tragedies can be, too. People crushed under pianos wasn’t funny at one point, but it is now. So is rape apparently. But anyway–they also affirm and reaffirm. Like, if I’m benefiting off the presumed disadvantages of certain groups, fuck that group. They make concrete for people the variableness, or amorphousness, of reality. Ontology. Otherwise: we kinda just have to shutthefuckup, really.

Done got this far and forgot what I wanted to say. Probably wasn’t important, unless it was. We still need to put our class together, isn’t that right? how y’all feel bout pizza tonight?


Blog 2: The Politics of Langauge

For my project, I had so many ideas going through my head. It was a little difficult to narrow it down to one. Reading all of your blogs, I saw many ideas that were meaningful, and I wanted to be a part of all of them. However, I saw that most of the topic areas were covered, with the exception of "The Politics of Language & Race and Popular Culture". I want to see all the topics stay alive. This is our baby, so I defaulted to 'The Politics of Language'. I am thoroughly pleased to say that it helped narrow down my ideas.

1. "Why you actin white": I read a lot of blogs about growing up in Elizabeth, NJ. Most of my classmates seem to have experienced acceptance into their Latino and African American communities where education and social economic advancement were valued. Some of you don't even recall experiencing negative attitudes or prejudice concerning your culturally and linguistically diverse families. My experience was a little different. I remember feeling prejudice, but not from a black vs. white standpoint. I experienced more prejudice from within the African American community, in my own neighborhood. 

I remember growing up all my life hearing "Why you act so white?", "Why do you talk like a white girl?"  I thought I was speaking and acting like everyone else. I spoke clearly, and enunciated my words. It is how my Grandmother, and mother taught me to speak. But for some it way to deny my membership into urban community where I lived, which was a mix of  middle class--to working poor families. I was bused to gifted and talented schools in "better" areas, so I did not go to school or spend the majority of my day with the members of my community. I was accused of thinking I was better than other black people because I was smart or a "nerd" as it was put to me. Because of racism, and stereotyping "white" mannerisms meant that you identified with white people and did not accept your culture.  

I would like to explore how I learned to navigate my own membership into the community. I learned to identify only with certain types of black people and it made me value diversity more than ever. The importance of my project is because I learned to navigate within my community using a "performance identity", which is very confusing and painful to an adolescent growing up. You never learn to be yourself. Within my community, I had to use more of "urban attitude", meaning you are more street smart than book smart. You dress and look the other members but, you carry yourself in such a way where you are role model of the group. But, that can go either way. Some will love you or hate you. I also learned that as far as racism goes, people generally (tolerate) people regardless of their race, as long as they don't fit the stereotypes of the ones they are prejudiced against. So, I learned how to not act too "white" around the blacks, and how not to act too "black" around the diverse groups. 

The flip side is having children, I always wanted them be themselves. They were encountering the same problems in the community, so I moved them out. However, with the rash of events concerning blacks and whites in the community like, racial profiling, police brutality, killing of unarmed teenagers, I learned to view racism as more of threat in the 21st century. Now, prejudice has a new approach. It is no longer just about your physical characteristics, education, or class. Prejudice can be toward something as utilitarian as a "Hoodie" or even worse, a black male being in the wrong place at the wrong time--being black. So I guess to tie it into "The politics of language" I would also like to explore how I have to have conversations or negotiations with my seventeen year old son, on how to navigate public spaces--being African American--in a "non-threatening" way so to speak. It is that performance identity that started with my journey as an adolescent, and has continued. 

So I am trying to figure out how to do this project without doing a lot of writing. My story is a long, heartfelt one and I can get carried away. I know I have two themes going on here, but they both matter to me, so I have to figure out a way to explore both and make them meaningful. 

Thank you for reading this. It was long and descriptive, but I did warn you all that I dream about my  writing and my ideas up to the last minute. So this is the stream of consciousness that over spills during the wee hours of the morning. 

2. Race and Identity: I would also like to be a part of (Kim and Jayme's) Don't Judge a Book.
One thing I was thinking of was to have pictures of people in their everyday life, normal habitat kind of thing and have a word bank. The word bank would include five different occupations, 5 different cultures, or economic scenarios which students would have to choose from, to see how much stereotyping or assumptions they would make about the subject. I will explain more in class, it might make more sense. I have done to much writing, and I know my grammars sucks. Please excuse, it is 5:00 am..LOL




Are you Chinese or Japanese?…Are those my only options? Blog #2

I unconsciously already wrote around the lines of my desired topic for my final project in my Blog #1. Although it was all over the place I think there are several topics I can take from it: 
  1. Stereotypes --experiences encountered
  2. The loss of culture when growing up in an environment that is unfamiliar to your own 
  3. My own personal experience of being stripped of my pride 
  4. "Privileged minorities"
To come up with an actual project I would like to dive into a place I consider myself to be both comfortable and uncomfortable with--poetry. I write when I am passionate about something and I often find myself leaving Dr. Z's classes inspired. Although its difficult to completely use sources and academic articles throughout a task like this I believe it can be done with justice through the experiences I've gone through. 

Apologies for the brief post, will be e-mailing Dr. Z for some clarification on some things! Stay tuned

P.S this was an encounter I had when I was younger

[Kid]: Hey you with the slanty eyes, are you Chinese or Japanese
[Me]: Depends, are those my only options?

Then they came for me— Blog #1

I've struggled for what seems like a lifetime on deciding on how to identify myself and how society set forth a certain criteria for me to fit. But thinking back on it, I can remember my first encounters with race and the problems carried by it like it was yesterday...

  • Speaking Tagalog in my Kindergarten class got me sent to the Principals office along with a phone call to my parents (took away my native tongue) 
  • Being raised in a predominantly Spanish and black neighborhood I got teased for being Asian. So I put my best efforts into pretending I was Peruvian and denied every part of my heritage until high school. (stripped me of my pride)
  • In High School I had trouble making friends anywhere outside of the classroom, I assume my classmates believed in stereotypes since everyone wanted to sit next to me in math classes (Unlucky for them it was my worst subject). And when driver's ed came around my sophomore year, the jokes were endless (apparently Asians have bad driving skills embedded in their genes). (lasting encounters where people have made assumptions of me because of my race) 
But coming to college has not fixed these problems, only helped me realize that they existed. And in any case, awareness is the first step (i'm still trying to figure out the next couple of steps). I've majored in sociology in hopes to understand not only society and those around me but also to gain deeper enlightenment on myself. But I've fallen into what I like to call a "suicidal-major" because all of my family friends (who are Filipino) consider me to be a failure. In my culture, nursing or engineering is the way to be successful, stray from that and you will be looked down on. Luckily enough I have two parents who understand the hardships of being a minority and have backed me up in taking part in this seemingly forever endeavor to figure out who I am.

Secondly,

I find myself in the middle of a world where all people see is black or white and I not completely fitting in anywhere so I sit myself in the grey section. For example, I asked my friends (Filipino-Americans) if they wanted to go protesting with me in NYC over the recent death of Eric Garner. Their responses were not only indifferent but even slightly depressing. They said, "what does that have to do with us", I was so shocked that I wasn't sure how to respond. But then I tried to think about it from their POV, they aren't sociology majors, this isn't what they are debating in classrooms or critically analyzing for homework.
Personally, I think Asian-Americans are minorities held in high regard and even given "privilege" to some extent. We are given higher status in the world of "minorities" and I have several experiences that agree with me. I guess I bring this up because my culture is lost in a "race-mess" that I want to help clear up and bring a better understanding to people. I am vice-president of the Filipino Club on campus (F.U.N.K) and I hope to learn and set straight these problems so I can pass my knowledge onto my members.
I completely understand, race may have a large role in cases like this but so does your political standing. To clarify, my problem comes with the status that Asian-Americans are placed in. "Model minorities" but still minorities i'm lost in the cross-fire. And although it does not cover the full extent to my reasoning, to answer the aforementioned question of why I wanted to protest is because I stand against any injustice or prejudice that is committed especially involving race.

First they came for the Socialists, and I did not speak out—
Because I was not a Socialist.
Then they came for the Trade Unionists, and I did not speak out— 
Because I was not a Trade Unionist.
Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out— 
Because I was not a Jew.
Then they came for me—and there was no one left to speak for me.

- MARTIN NIEMÖLLER